My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
As always Sue you pick the most apt pictures lol.
Hope that you all have as good a day as you can tomorrow. Will be thinking of you all x x x
Hope Ailsa's sister has had better weather for her wedding photos.
Love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x
ha ha SUE i may need that in a few hours ,my friends daughter has got through to the semi's in contest . the first prize is 1000 ponnd . The final is on the 19th dec , i'll keeo you posted night night xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Morning xxx
Sue thinking of you today, bug higs (((((())))))
Lynne well done to your daughter`s friend, and another night out!!!
Well it is absolutely bucketing it down here, I have got a vision of us all in wellies and mackintosh`s saying our prayers before we bury the ashes lol!!! That`s a tricky picture to find Sue lol xxx
Will let all you lovely people know how it goes later. Taking us all for lunch then back to Paul`s mum and dad`s for a while. Thanks for your all your good wishes, it helps so much.
Hope everyone has an ok Sunday
Helen xxx
Dear Sue & Helen,
Thinking of you both today..
Lots of love Quil xxxx
Sue and Helen, Love and strength and hig bugs to you both today.
Judi xxx
Dear Sue and Helen,
Thinking of you both this weekend.
Love to everyone, Yvonne xx
Helen and Sue. Thinking of you today x x x
Love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x
Helen and Sue, thinking of your and Manda and Hayley too this weekend. Love and biggest of hugs to you and just a little bit of "girl power" maybe? Be back later after braving the wind and rain to put the horses to bed - methinks the dogs will want to stay warm and dry though.
Take care everyone xxx
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