My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Ha Ha Sue , have you been peeking through my window ? that could have been me 10 mins ago lol . No not really i am travelling really light this time (honest ) Yes my sis will keep her bag close to her but this time we do have her husband with us and we are staying closer to the town so no walks home , but we will be more aware this time .When i went to the cemmy after work 2 more benches had gone up and i thought of you Ailsa and wondered if yours was up yet . I'm hoping the weather dries up a little before i go , i want to spend a bit of time up there this weekend , i've got a new vase and i want to put some deep red roses in it . I've given up on getting the head stone done before xmas now so i'll just keep it as nice as i can . I've bought a little xmas tree and i've bought lots of little cards and i'm going to get everybody to write  a message on them and then hang them on the tree .

Hope your 6 month day is ok Sue xxxx

Lynne xxxxxxxxxx

thanks, Lynne

i've ordered a solar powered lantern for alan's special place - hoping it might come before sunday.

something like this!

Hi Sue yes i've got something similar , you might have seen it in some of the pics but mine is battery , they are probably flat now but as i dont intend going in there in the dark i'll not bother changing them yet . I hope your lantern comes before sunday , are you doing anything else to "mark the day " or just trying to get though it ?

Lynnexxxxxxx

alice and i are going to Sarah's (the eldest)  for lunch. They live in Bath, and have 2 children - Ella is 9, and Eve is 6, both going on 18.   (Pics on profile!!!)

Well everyone, whatever you are going to be doing over the weekend I hope it is not too traumatic and perhaps just maybe a little bit joyous. x x x

Love and angel hugs x x xPatricia x x x

I`ve had a few ciders so typing slowly lol!!!

Dave I am so glad you have joined us over here,  xxx.They`re a nice bunch as you`ll see xxxx

I`ve been out as you know with my friend and bumped into friends of mine and Paul`s. The first one seemed to ignore me but when I chatted to him later he admitted he didn`t know what to say. But then.... asked if I was moving on and getting back on the scene!!!!! WTF!!!! Excuse my french!!! NO!!! I`m out with a friend!!!!. What is it with these people, 1st my neighbour constantly texting and then those 2???? Maybe one day it may happen but cannot imagine it at all. I have Paul`s blessing as that was one of the things he was most insistent about before he died..I must meet someone and be happy, but not yet!!!!

Sorry, rant over. Can`t believe some people!!!

Night all

Helen xxx

Morning all , If i dont get to speak to you again before sunday Sue i hope you enjoy your lunch in Bath and  the day goes ok , i have seen the pics of the lovely little girls in you profile , i know what you mean about the "going on 18 " Hope your lamp comes in time and i will be thinking about you (even through my packing) . I was telling Patricia the other night i've got the "6th month " on the 30th dec , new year and then my birthdau on jan 2nd , cant say i'm looking fporward to those few days but i know i'll get through them with family and all your support . Big hig for tommorow (((((((((HIG))))))))))) xx.

Helen how brave to post after having cider lol , i often want to but never do god knows what i'd write , i once left a message for Gordon (on this site ) after i'd had a drink and when i read it the next morning i thought people would think i'd "lost it" ha ha probably had really , so i vowed never to post again under the influence lol. I knows what you mean about men friends , i bumped into one of Gordons (not really a close friend ) and he said to me "hello are you getting over it then " ........IT !!!!! i said "i'll never get over losing him" and walked away before i thumped him . Just because they see us doing what our husbands wanted us to do i'm sure some people think we've forgotten them ,, not the people that really care about us , so i've decided that the other type dont really matter , we cant please everybody and like you say its what our husbands wanted . I hope you had a good boogie and i hope tommorow goes aswell as it can hun . Hope the kids get through it ok , it must be so hard to cope with their grief as well as your own . xx

Have a fantastic day Ailsa , i really hope the rain is slowing down , its been really bad here but at least no floods .I really do love yoyr bench and plaques , Gordons daughters wanted to do the bench for me but all they have put on the plaque is "dads bench " so i'm going to have another one done with his name on (they said i could ) so there will be 2 on that too . Hope the day isn't to emotional for you , i know Chris will be with you , helping you xx

Morning Judi , Esme , Gayle Fiona , Amanda , Patricia and now Dave (i hope ) have a pleasant day , i'm off shopping with daughter (again ) and maybe a few little drinkies and then back for x factor . I wish i could get my a** in gear and do some christmas shopping , i seem to have a mental blockage . Take care all speak later

Lynnexxxxxxxxxx

Morning Everyone,  Just a quick post to tell you all i am a granny, Kim had her baby on the 20th Nov at 2 oclock in the morning a baby boy 6lbs 8ounces and his name is Charlie Derek both fine. I am so glad it is over and they are ok my head in a whirl, he is so tiny though you forget just how tiny they are. Hope Derek is looking down on us all and he is proud of his daughter, sure he will be having a wee vodka to celebrate, wish he was still here (o dear tears) will catch up soon. Luv Fiona xxxxxx   

So, so glad everything went well, and many congratulations to you and all - love to Kim.

what a lovely name - grandad derek will be so proud, and will be looking after his new grandson and his proud mummy and granny.

sue xxxx

Hi all

Thanks for the kind wellcome.

Sorry i didnt reply last night but George was poorly.We both seem to have caught abug from Freddie.Yes Lynne i do have support from both my mother and mum in law with kids my mum has Freddie every Tuesday and he is in nursary 3 days a week which enables me to work part/time whilst George is at school.

Congratulations Fiona thats great news about baby Charlie Derek

Ailsa the pictures of the bench are great.Nics work are going to organise one for her in our local park where we used to walk the kids and dog "Ithink its a great idea".

Helen hope you are well today after your late night xx

Thanks again everone for the lovely wellcome

Dave xx