Wife passed of TNBC last month

Hello there I hope you are ok, here if you need to inbox and chat, my partner passed away of GBM (glioblastoma) in july, im 34, and we have a 6 year old daughter, its hard , very difficult, you find strength to keep going, she gives me that focus an drive all the time. Been feeling unhappy, numb, happy, overwhelmed, its been a rollercoaster of emotions, he was diagnosed last year in feb, we were told 12 to 18 months :( I cared for him, until I watched him take his last breaths at pendleside hospice, we were together 14 years , in a sense I have been grieving for him a long time, I watched him slowly slipping away right infront of my eyes, grasping on to hope which is the only thing you can do, as we knew the chemo an radio etc was just to prolong his life, we were told that from the beginning, I cant imagine what you are going through , I wish I could say more to help ease your pain , sending my love an wishes.

Hey, sorry to hear about partner. I totally understand when you say you've been grieving for a while. It's exactly how I feel. Although my wife had the all clear twice, you still have those feelings. I'm just on a trip down to Torquay to visit my aunt. Thought a change of scene may do me good. But all I can think about is how much my wife would enjoy being here too. I guess my story is a little different to yours, but know the feelings and emotions are the same. My wife was doing so well,  then out of nowhere she had symptoms and was gone within a few weeks. Never really had chance to have some conversations we would have wanted. Hope you're doing as well as can be expected, again I know there's no real words to help. Here if you need to chat.

Yeah my partner was fit an healthy did 30k steps a day at work, was a hardworker suppprted me an my daughter immensely then had a seizure out of nowhere at work, no pre warning signs nothing at all, which then led to him being taken to the hospital an me walking into him being resusitated x3 then he was taken to an ICU. Words cant even begin to describe the rollercoaster of emotions that comes with all that on top of looking after our 6 year old daughter too, im really sorry you had to go through that, thats awful, I hope the change of scenery helps you, and ive felt the same ive been doing things thinking he would of loved this right now , its gut wrenching. Thankyou for sharing your story, as you say theres no words to even express what you must be going through also,  also here if you need to chat. 

I went for an appointment with the GP yesterday, and she said it's not just about what's just happened, it's about the roller coaster of the last 3 years. So understand what you mean. We had no kids though. 

The change of scenery is nice. Home doesn't really feel like home at the moment.

That is true what your GP said JP- and well done getting a face to face appointment btw-. Just after Jay passed I was thought I was going `nuts` and phoned my GP and she said the same thing because of all I had been through with Jay over the past two years before he passed was all catching up with me and plus my sister ironically had just been diagnosed with early stage bowel cancer (which Jay passed from) two months after he passed so I was going through it all again she has come through hers though and is progressing well. So she prescribed a short course of valium for me which helped a bit. I am on antidepressants (Fluoxotine) for an ongoing condition I have myself but she felt I needed something in addition to that but I'm managing now ok. My house doesn't feel like home anymore either just feels like a `shrine` to Jay as I haven't really changed much since he passed 3 years ago maybe a few little touches here and there but nothing major and not what I would like to do. 

Vicky.