One of those Days.

I like that one.

when I'm on the tennis court hitting the balls I feel a little better as I'm the one hitting them if I'm lucky. I see them coming and hopefully return them and a bit of exercise too.

Today though a crappy day lost some papers I could do with I put them somewhere safe and I can't find them! 

That’s a brilliant analogy, and completely true. I managed to “Dodge them”, yesterday. We all went to a BBQ at close friends. I made cocktails for several hours, that helped a lot.  Kate. Xxx

Ah that sounds like me. Use a couple of Jay's T shirts for PJ tops (big n baggy) and I wear his baseball cap going to the gym (there is quite a collection) and take his small `sweat towel` to the gym with me- when I go. Some of his stuff I still won't get rid of still in drawers. I take both my dad and Jay with me when out and about. I have a small passport size picture of my dad in my phone cover and Jay is round my neck and on my wrist ( wear his bangle and rope bracelet) so they are always with me. 

xx

Hi Insanity Kate,

like you I today have had a ‘sobbing Day’ , a month to the date I lost my darling David and I can’t get it out of my mind, he woke up feeling ok, went to Christie’s for his bloods on the 18/7ready for chemo on the 21/7.came home, rest for an afternoon nap but then got up not feeling great and it just spiralled from there then he lost the fight 19/7 in such a traumatic way and I am still reeling from it. We have 3 wonderful grown up sons who are doing their best to do comfort me but I miss him so much. It’s very early days I know but I feel I can come onto this site, express my mood and feelings  without someone saying to me’ ‘ well you’ve just got to get on with it’  I want to say to them ‘if you had the love we had together you might think twice about your choice of words’ this group helps me to deal with things a little better.