I Have decided to get a DNR order

Had 2  17 year old sister cats lost 1 last last year then lost my lovely wife in Feb this year.the one I have is grieving as well as me . It’s very uncanny the things she’s doing now after all the years she goes to my wife’s photo and just looks at it . I figured my wife has one with her and I have one with me. Now is the most important thing in my life feels like my only purpose in life now.  Wish all who are going though this terrible thing my best wishes

I have been to stay with my brother, his wife and their dog a few times now. 
I take my beautiful Valen with me in his casket. - which believe me is damn hard carrying the suitcase up and down stairs at Liverpool Street train station, it’s not light! 
I have 2 pictures which I carry with me at all times and prop up against his casket when at home, which I did at theirs.

When I got to theirs I got Valen out my case and we decided on where he should sit during the day so he can be amongst everything. 
I had his casket in my hands and their dog came to us.  
He sniffed at the casket, looked at me, sniffed the casket. 
Then he sat in front of us and gave me his paw which he does to ask for a treat. 
I never gave him treats. Valen always did.

Later, when I went to bed I put his pictures on the bedside table. 
In the morning my sister in law and their dog came in to my room with a cup of tea. 
Their dog went to Valen’s casket and sniffed it again. 
Then he came to the bedside table and very very gently picked up 1 of the pictures between his front teeth and walked out the room and down the stairs to the kitchen and stood with Valens picture in his mouth until we took it from him. 

The picture now has 2 little indents from his teeth.

The next 2 times he left the picture alone but each time when I first got there he has a good old sniff at Valen’s casket. 
And each time he has given Valens casket his paw.

My goodness, we all just howled each time. 
But it really felt that Valen was with us, a part of the breaks.