Not ready to say goodbye

But you will cope. Saying goodbye is a process, not an event in my experience, and the funeral is a step along the necessary journey. Those of us who have lost our beloveds are never ready to say goodbye. Take it one day at a time until the pain dulls. The funeral sounds as though it will be a fitting tribute and you will take memories away with you that you can revisit in the future and continue your long goodbye. 
Stay strong. 

Hi, I have just done my wife's funeral over a week ago. I went to her coffin and said some words and good bye,  but  I don't think it was a real goodbye.  I dont think I am ready for that.  My grief and sense of loss are still here,so is my love for her. I can't say it's easy, but it was nice to hear the great things about her and what she meant to other people. I don't know what I'm trying to say . For us it's a hard day but it's another step but it's not a goodbye because they are are soul mates and that can't be taken from us. Good luck.