6 months today

Hi there, it’s Kate here. As you know, we are on a similar timescale of loss. What an incredibly tough six months we have had. At times, the pain has been on a threshold I didn’t know existed. I literally don’t know how I have got through it. Perhaps, sheer  “bloodymindedness”. I made a vow to my darling Paul, that I would protect and guide our children, and in my darkest moments this has been my focus. I managed to get counselling at three months. I do think this really helped. I have used this forum on almost a daily basis, and it has truly been a lifeline. The people here are the only ones who really understand. Sending you love and hugs. Kate. Xxx

Hi Sad 1

Yes the time does go in. I was like you at the beginning and ticking off the months since Jay passed. I was on here yesterday and looking at old posts I had put on on the Bowel cancer forum the time I had just lost Jay and it showed `over two years ago` so yes where has the time gone. I am just over 18 months now without him. Still at times I find it so surreal that he is not here and so strange to speak about him now in a past tense when I speak to my son William it's `your dad used to do this/that. My son gets married a week this Saturday (15th Feb) hoping it will be a lovely day  and I'm sure it will. A few people have already said to me that it will be a bit emotional for me and I think that too but at the same time there will be a lot of people there that will hopefully see me through the day and his dad will be somewhere around in spirit celebrating with us. Still good to come here when I feel I need to let off steam of vent and Kate you are so right these forums are a lifeline when you feel you need to offload if there is no one else around to speak to. My best wishes to you all moving forward. 

Vicky xx

Thank you Kate and Vicky,

Yes I need to use this group more again, with people who truly understand.

Thank you for reading and replying.

Love & hugs

Marcia xx

I hope the day goes well for you, I am sure it will. Your Jay will be carried there in your heart. Sending hugs. Kate. Xxx

Thank You Kate x