My husband died almost 5 months ago of sepsis while being treated for oesophageal cancer. His death was sudden and traumatic, and arguably avoidable. We had been together for almost 40 years: married, raising a family and working together. I find myself dwelling on his final hours and questioning what I could have done to get him effective treatment earlier. He didn't have obvious signs of an infection and it took over seven hours to get antibiotics administered when it became clear to me that he wasn't just suffering from side-effects of chemo. The guilt and sense of loss have, if anything, amplified. I read it takes six months to recover. Really? How have others coped?
