A HOPEFUL New Year

All we can do is try our best, part of which is staying healthy and looking after ourselves as best we can.

Which I know is sometimes easier said than done.

I went shopping today, and after a false start when I had to abandon the trolley to dash back to the car for a cry, I bought a few pieces of fresh fruit, some tomatoes and baking spuds.

This time I am super determined to eat them rather than chucking them out like the last 3 times. 
I also got some tins of soup which require just a quick zap in the microwave, no cooking.

So I am making a real effort to start eating properly and not just a tube of Pringles, or family packet of tortillas, or a packet of mini scotch eggs. Or 3 packets of wine gums.

Its a step towards hopefully being healthy in body if not in mind or spirit.

xx

Hi there, I am doing an alcohol free January. It is Day 4, and I can say that my sleep has improved. I managed eight hours sleep in one go. Whoopee. That is the most sleep I have had in one night for about a year. I am focusing on being kind and patient to myself. If I have setbacks, then I just accept them and move on. I have had a good chat with my darling this morning, and will try to be productive. Sending hugs to all. Kate. Xxx

New year was worse than Christmas for me.

I've been going to slimming world, to see my friends there and I've been gaining weight after the initial loss, but they all understand.

It's now time to get my health back on track, coz there is no one to look after me, but me.

Not reast to cook, so had a low calorie ready meal. It's a step.

Love and hugs to you all xx

Why does everything go wrong all at once? When we have no energy to deal with extra problems. I do hope you're sorted now. Take care x

I had a visit from my robin today. I haven’t seen him for several weeks. I asked for a sign to be sent from my darling, and there he was. This has given me hope and courage today. I believe in after death communication. Hugs to all. Kate. Xxx

Aw thats lovely Kate.

I believe in after death communication.

I've had a few odd things happen, but reassuring.

Xx

I had a terrible morning. So much crying about it being 100 days. 
I had arranged to meet my sister in town. Because of the unstoppable tears I decided on a whim to go a bit early and go to my safe cafe for a hug from my best friend.

On the way something on the path glittered and caught my eye. 
A small gold butterfly charm. 
I walked on not really thinking about it for several minutes. 
Because of its size and shape I decided to go back and check it out.

As I bent down to pick it up I noticed that the charm on my bag was missing. 
The charm of a sunflower and butterfly my sister in law gave me on the day of my beautiful Valen’s funeral.
Butterflies for me and Valens favourite flower was sunflowers.

I picked it up, turned it over, and there was the familiar iridescent blue of my missing charm!!! 
That I hadn’t noticed was missing!  

If I hadn’t been crying so much I wouldn’t have gone to the cafe and taken that route and found my charm.

Thank you my Valen xx

Hello . Thanks for your reply. Not everything sorted, but hey it is rural France ! Internet ok though, felt very cut off from the world. Couldn't get onto this either ! 

I am struggling with low energy at the moment.. one thing is enough to do at the moment. This is my moment to reply to you.

Hope you are ok. Hugs to you .