I lost my amazing husband on the 16th of June, which was also my birthday
he was diagnosed in October with lung cancer and it had already spread. I will never forget that day he said he couldn’t have treatment because it would make him too sick and was given just a couple of months.
I was very fortunate to be able to take time away from work to be there 24/7 I’m not sure hubby liked it 
we made some amazing memories with family and friends and made sure we went away just the too of us every month for a few days which was precious. I think that kept him going because he had something to look forward to.
The last few weeks he did struggle and it was hard but I refused to give in, I promised him that I would take care of him till the end and as I held him in our bed while he passed away I knew that I had kept my promise. Hubby had wrote letters and had been recording me video messages through it all which I found after he passed, I take great comfort in them knowing I did what he wanted.
I had 25 years with the most amazing man and I keep that in my heart through these very hard and lonely times.
I now have to try to find who I am, I never thought I would be a widow at 45
