Hello everyone
Been off the radar for a little while, but read all the posts and just thinking about so many things. Trying to think of happy times, before Barry became ill. Throat cancer, ulcers on the ankles, and cancer probably spread to the stomach and liver. Completely untreatable. The body just gave up.
I am trying to find me again. Not easy, after 37 years together. The loss is unbearable sometimes.
Christmas will come, and go. I have had many invitations to share the day, but have refused everything. I keep saying, it is the rest of the week, the next day, the next year ? When I will need some support, but now on my terms. I refuse to be pushed. Clothes, for instance. I have packed away some, will keep some and will give some to the local retirement home. At some point.
No rush.
On another note. I haven't deleted Barry's e mail account. Still get things that I have to deal with re the computer. I hardly know what to keep or renew as Barry did it all.
Should I just contact everyone and close down the account? Seems too awful to do.
Well. For all our loved ones who have died, I send my best wishes and thoughts at this very sad time.
Hugs
