Hello
I’m not sure why I am posting here. I think I just need to talk to others who have been in the same boat
6 weeks ago my husband went into hospital with tiredness and back pain. He was found to have pancytopenia and the problem was caused by his bone marrow. They found a malignancy but were never able to pinpoint the exact cancer and said it was very rare. In the 6 weeks he was there I saw him deteriorate in front of my eyes and there was nothing they could do except treat the symptoms
I was with him when he drew his last breath at 07:39 on Saturday morning. I am broken, he went in the same man and sone rare cancer literally sucked the life out of him before my very eyes
Why? How does this happen so quickly? I can’t get my head around it and it’s as much as I can do just to keep breathing. How the hell do people move on with something like this?
Please help me make sense of all this 
