What do you do when you can’t stop crying

Hi ArthurD

I just wanted you to know that we are listening,   and I hope that past couple of days have been a little bit easier for you. 

Anniversary's of the loss of any loved one are often difficult times, it is normal and as you say grief does not respect any time tables.

Thinking of you 

Lowe'

Thanks, trying to keep myself busy, at the moment mainly my PC project of sorting, dating and face tagging thousands of photos…..but soon as I take a break, it all floods back. Don t think there is answer, there’s only one thing I need and that’s impossible, I wonder why we are so I’ll prepared for losing a spouse, must happen countless times every day, the price we pay for love, the stronger the love, the more we pay

For my Linda

You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories

You are my reason, You are all of my reasons

Rest in Peace darling until we meet again, I love and miss you more than you could ever know 

To Linda

I miss you every morning, I miss you through the night, I miss you when you’re worried, I miss holding you tight

I miss making you cups of tea, your favourite drink of all time.

I miss reminiscing about our weddings, when you said ‘Twice’ you’ll be mine.

I miss listening to your travel directions, the sat nav had no chance.

I miss reminiscing about our first meeting, our very first dance.

I miss our conversations, there was nothing we didn’t talk about.

I miss all our special moments, about, that there is no doubt.

I miss you when you called me to see if I was alright

I miss saying good morning, I miss saying good night

I miss you every minute of every single day

I miss you my Linda, I love you more than words could ever say

Had the initial interview for counselling, just waiting for a date for the first session. Really not sure it’s going to help, only get max 10 sessions. May try the MacMillan offer of counselling with BUPA, after the other has finished, see how it goes. The evenings are the worse, when my son is around I’m ok, I manage, but other evenings I just want to sit and cry, I miss my Linda so so much, it’s unbearable. Everything single thing I do reminds me of her, so ,Amy times I do something and almost go to tell her, I never knew how terrible life could be from losing a partner, I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but I’ve never felt so desperate to feel normal again, never felt so alone and lonely, never felt like the world has abandoned me, never felt like life has nothing to offer me.

Sorry  

Hi arthurd  I have that same feeling of loneliness and abandonment just sat here trying to think of some mundane job to do to make myself feel useful and to achieve something although I cant seem to get up for anything, waiting for the post to arrive is as exciting as it gets ,I retired early to look after Lynne but also to have new ankles and shoulder so being in a physical job I wouldn't be able to do that now but as you know it is really difficult to show any interest in anything I tried counselling but unfortunately it's not for me and didn't help ,though I'm sure some people find it beneficial, I found a fellas on you tube called Jack  church seems a really nice bloke does grief videos called travelling with Jack and pam he gets it because he lost his wife so might be worth a watch anyway all the best  best wishes terry 

Thank you ️