Hello everyone,
I haven't posted in a long time. I haven't even been here to read your messages. It's been a crazy couple of weeks for me.
I am writing this from Germany where I've been staying since 2nd July. I am visiting my dad in the care home every day and, sadly, he doesn't have long so every minute with him is precious. I am helping my mum at home with housework, cooking, cleaning, paperwork, phone calls and whatever else needs doing.
I have decided to sell my house in Ireland and to make a completely new start here in Germany. I think when I came here in July I wasn't entirely sure yet - but then something unexpected happened, really unexpected, and that helped me very much in my decision making process: I met a new man!
To be honest, I met him a couple of months ago when my dad first went into the care home. He is one of the professional carers in the home. As he was brushing past me on the corridor on that evening in May, I immediately felt "Wow, what a man! What an energy!" I was saying to my mum afterwards, half joking, that I would love to get to know the man. I then didn't see him for weeks. We met again in July during one of my first visits in the care home. Every time we saw each other there was such a strong energy; I could tell that he was looking at me and I was sensing him (because I can't see him) and it just felt amazing. Then, one day, I didn't go into the care home with my mum. When my mum came home that day, she told me that Jugo had asked for me. She had told him that I was at home doing work on the computer and that I was also a therapist. He got very interested in that and gave her his phone number telling her that, if I wanted to, I could give him a call and maybe we could arrange for him to have a massage. So I did ring him, and I gave him the massage, and we talked a lot, the first kiss happened, then more... I was at first very insecure because I didn't know whether he was only looking for sex or, like me, for a longterm thing and I felt I needed to know in order to be able to go forward with this - and especially here in Germany people are of the opinion that when a man comes to work here from a country that is rather poor, like Serbia for example is, they have family at home but are looking for a bit of fun here, so basically they are here for work and also for sex - and even though I find this view really racist, I've grown up with it and so it is kind of deeply ingrained in me and it has taken some effort over the last couple of weeks to learn to trust. But I now know that Jugo has fallen in love with me and I have fallen in love with him. It is wonderful to be loved by a man again. And it is wonderful to feel love for a man again. Or I should say "being in love". But it could be the start of something really, really beautiful.
Jugo is five years older than me and from Serbia. His German i okay, but not really good yet, and whenever we have problems with German we use English or, in some rare cases, Google Translate.
He is loving, kind, compassionate, caring, funny, has a lovely voice and is in every way a very attractive man.
So those are the updates from me guys. A lot going on but all good. And even what is happening with my dad is good or will be good once he lets go because life is only suffering for him now and it would be such a relief for him to die.
Lots of love to you all!
Mel
Wow Mel 
good luck 
xx
