Where will my path lead

I think the same.where will my life go.

I couldnt imagine meeting another woman and starting a relationship.

The days and nights are so long arent they.

Its 5 months for me and it hasnt got any easier yet.

I try to go out somewhere every day but you still come back to an empty house.

Yes I get told it’s a difficult path…..bit of an understatement, take care 

Arthurd, how often have I asked myself the same question? I lost my beloved Paul three and a half years ago and, like you, I didn't have any friends except one at the time because Paul and I had been enough for each other, we didn't want and didn't need anyone else. I really couldn't understand where I would ever get the strength to go out and meet new people. How do you even do it? But I did it. I joined MeetUp groups, founded my own walking group, also made myself more available to those people who, as I began to realise, would have loved to be in closer contact with me for a long time but I simply didn't make the time for them in my life because my life was Paul and I didn't want anyone or anything else. Now, three and a half years on from losing Paul, I have a good life. It isn't the life I wanted, but it is a life I have come to cherish because it is a good life, even though Paul sadly is no longer physically here. I often ask myself: Will I ever be in a relationship again? I mean, I am only 39, so there is plenty of time, and like you say, I certainly don't want to be on my own and grow old on my own. But I am not sure whether I could really allow myself to have a relationship again. Paul was my one true love. But then somebody said to me the other day that nobody says that it has to be similar to what Paul and I had. It's funny actually: Ther is the Chief Medical Officer of Ireland, Tony Holahan, and I have always liked his voice and his way of speaking and everything. And then I heard that his wife was in hospice, and later that she had died. And I was thinking to myself: With someone like that - someone who has also lost their soul mate and is not looking for a replacement so to speak but just for a bit of love and company - I could imagine that I think.

We will see what happens, won't we. This life is so unexpected sometimes.

Love and hugs, Mel

Well, I had one close friend, Jacqui, who had been there for Paul and me

Hey Arthurd

If it makes you feel any better I'm only 21. I still have 50 years until I reach your age but I'm in the same boat. I can't imagine being with anyone but my Nathaniel. I'm pregnant with twins and have 3 kids. I mean who'd befriend the sobbing widow with nearly half a dozen children. Who'd want 5 step children? I certainly wouldn't. I can't get a job until my unborn kids are in school. That's 5 years. They say it's a difficult path, but let's be honest that is an understatement. It's a long, treacherous, sad, god-awful seemingly endless path filled with so many obstacles that it's almost impossible not to get lost or fall over

Hello, no it certainly doesn’t make me feel any better at all. There are so many seemingly impossible situations, I trust that God will find a way to help us all. Please feel free to PM me if you want a private chat, I know such things help me when things get bad

keith