Hi all
As you know I don’t often post these days I don’t know why I think it’s because I concentrate so much on getting past each day that I tend to just get on with it . Well here I am the second Christmas without my darling hubby somehow in some ways this was worse than the first last year was just a blur somehow only loosing Kola in the October 18 this year I was more aware he wasn’t here but i got on with it for my granddaughter and everything was good till Boxing Day evening went I had a melt down and couldn’t stop crying I was so upset and in some ways cross with myself that it had happened and didn’t want to ruin my family’s Christmas little did I know we all felt the same and one by one we all broke down it’s still so hard most of the time we are ok and get on with daily life and don’t hurt as much then right out of the blue wham it hits you again oh well that’s the nature of grief I suppose well here’s to a new year I’ve promised myself to really look after myself this year for myself and for my darling as he would be so cross if he thought I wasn’t caring about myself so onwards and upwards thought I would catch you all up on a year and a bit later and let you know whatever you feel whenever you feel it’s ok it’s the new normal
lots of love Pam xxxx
