This Christmas has been so difficult - I can’t even remember how I got through last year but reality has set in that my lovely husband won’t ever come home. Any special moments I have are tinged with sadness as he isn’t here to share it with me. Seeing my excited grandchildren at Christmas was bittersweet- all our dreams and plans for our retirement together never happened. I feel he was cheated and so was I and our family.
The loneliness is almost unbearable even though I have a wide support network. I feel guilty that life feels like an existence now.
