Struggling

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     It’s just over ten months since I lost my wonderful husband Alan,but I seem to be struggling more now than the start of this horrible journey.Im waiting for a appointment for counselling but there is a 3month wait,I’m going to try and go to the drop in cafe tomorrow,it’s on twice a month.just hope my panic attacks don’t stop me,plus I have chronic pain syndrome.But I am going to try.Alan was my rock he helped me through my panic attacks he was always understanding and trying to do all this without him is so hard.I know we all are on the same journey trying to adjust to life without our husband/wives.but god it is so  unbearable.I got up this morning dressed to go out but still sat here,just feel lost in the town on my own.Sorry for rambling on but I know people on here will understand.hope people are having a better day than me......          Val xx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Thank you so much jojofor your support x.

    I'm not actually seeing it as a shrine but a place where  a tiny piece of who my darling once was in the physical is now  enshrined in the heart of a beautiful red rose of love. If anybody doesn't like or agree with memorials of this nature that's their prerogative my friend. It doesn't bother me one bit. Thank you again jojo xx

    Love and Light 

    Geoff

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    FormerMember in reply to limbo

    Thank you so much for your support limbo x.  It was indeed a difficult but a reverant act.  I believe some do not like or agree with actions of this nature. Well so be it. But I now know that a tiny piece of the material body of my true love now rests in the heart of a red rose of love. Close by. Close to my heart.

    Love and Light 

    Geoff

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hi Geoff It is so lovely what you have done with your lovely Rose. I have also also had my Ron"s St christopher which I gave him 4 years ago on our Golden Wedding anniversary made up with some of his ashes and of course I wear it with love and he is always with me and in my heart. I know for a fact that Ron would have loved me doing this as I have said before I always put his name on all cards as my Angel in the sky, he would love that as well. It was lovely how you said that a tiny piece of material body is with us all of the time.  They will always be with us Geoff especially if we talk to them and kiss their photos. Love and Light to you Geoff and also love and hugs. xxxx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hi Geoff So sorry I forgot to my name Carol, It is so much more friendly when you sign off with your name, xxxxx

  • Hi all,

    I have Richard's ashes in my garden, in a pot with a rose bush that was a wedding present from my stepson. It does bring me comfort/strength,at times, or place to go when I need to cry or have a little chat.

    I am liking the idea of having champagne. I have a bottle or two that were gifted last year for our wedding and it now seems apt to open atleast one in December.

    With lots of love,

    Dutsie Xx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Thanks Carol. You are a sweet lady xx

    Love and Light

    Geoff.