Struggling

FormerMember over 5 years ago

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It’s just over ten months since I lost my wonderful husband Alan,but I seem to be struggling more now than the start of this horrible journey.Im waiting for a appointment for counselling but there is a 3month wait,I’m going to try and go to the drop in cafe tomorrow,it’s on twice a month.just hope my panic attacks don’t stop me,plus I have chronic pain syndrome.But I am going to try.Alan was my rock he helped me through my panic attacks he was always understanding and trying to do all this without him is so hard.I know we all are on the same journey trying to adjust to life without our husband/wives.but god it is so unbearable.I got up this morning dressed to go out but still sat here,just feel lost in the town on my own.Sorry for rambling on but I know people on here will understand.hope people are having a better day than me...... Val xx

FormerMember over 5 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Hi Fiona

I am still awake. Cannot see myself to fall asleep soon. I wish i could.

The loneliness is awful. We only had each other.

I hope you have a good night sleep.Take care

Andrea

FormerMember over 5 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Hi Fiona,

Yes I like all of Scotland to visit preferably in the summer peripheral neuropathy makes the cold more difficult but I fondly remember the midge swarms on the Isle of Skye and crossing there on the ferry before the bridge was thought of. Unfortunately without my husband even the shortest journeys are a challenge, I've never been a driver for pleasure like my husband and having been thrown off buses and trains because of my anxiety any kind of journey is out of the question, in fact if I make the 8 miles to see my counsellor then I have to pat myself on the back for achieving it. But I do wish she'd say something more helpful than 'you could always take the bus'.

But Scotland is one of those places that was on the list along with Yellowstone park, New Zealand South Island, Hawaii, Western Australia, places that we planed to visit or revisit because we never though we'd seen enough of them

Now that made me sad, I must stop thinking about things like that so close to his birthday.

Newb over 5 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Hi d have you ever been to NZ I used to live there a beautiful country

Ian

Wildcat over 5 years ago in reply to FormerMember

D yes all those things we were going to do with our spouses now gone. We always talked of getting a camper fan when he retired and exploring our country. I'm in Scotland but don't drive and so am limited.

Look to the moon.

Can't imagine any future without my soulmate

FormerMember over 5 years ago in reply to Wildcat

Just wanted to say good night to you all.

Thinking of you all.

Andrea xxx

FormerMember over 5 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Hi Andrea and all

Good luck to anyone, who can get some sleep tonight. It's 26 degrees in my bedroom. No sleep for me and up at 5am.

Hoping some of you can.

Newb over 5 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Hard night to hot to sleep up at 5.30 still hot now at work sweating be glad when it cools a little but there anything to make Life a miserable

Ian

FormerMember over 5 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Good morning all I hope better day every one

Eminxxx

Newb over 5 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Good morning emin hope you slept well to

Ian

FormerMember over 5 years ago in reply to Newb

Good morning Newb

Sorry to hear you didn't get good sleep. I wish your day at work went the best it can for you.

I was up early too as always. Then i have to get up because of stomach pain. Jusr watching news.

I am going back to work next week. Not looking forward to it but have to. It will probably be better for me.

Take care and wish you the best

Andrea

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