Struggling

Hi Andrea. Glad you got s few hours sleep, it all helps. I did a small bit of gardening to day as well but only for an hour. The weather isn’t that great here it’s overcast and drizzle. So no heat wave. I bet bute is very nice as well, nice and peaceful. Winnie was actually born on Bere island. , so in a way she was coming home. Not a nice job for you tomorrow, but once it’s done it’s done . 

Iam going to stay with my sister in law tonight, then tomorrow I am driving up to a a place called Doolin near Galway ( about 5 hour drive ) to visit my brother in law. I am not to keen on it but forcing myself to do it just to get out of the house, they are both very nice so I don’t mind meeting them. It’s the thought of going on my own. 

When you go to town tomorrow after it’s all done you should find a nice little place where you can have a cup of coffee and a nice cream cake. 

When you lived in Scotland did you ever go to Edinburgh, that’s where I was born. 

I will be thinking about you tomorrow, and pray it all goes well. 

Hugs and xx. 

Mike 

Newb I hope the BBQ wasn’t to hard for you. It couldn’t have been easy but you were doing it for the grandchildren and that’s what you’re wife would want you to do. At least the long weekend is nearly over. Hope you sleep tonight. 

Mike 

Hi Mike

That's great you are going to see your relatives. It will do you good. 

Yes, i have been to Edinburgh several times. Its a beautiful city. Also i used fly from Edinburgh Airport to visit my family in Slovakia. 

I also have a friend who lives in Melrose in Scottish Borders. Been there a lot of times. I was in love with that place. When i met my husband i tried to get him to go and live there but he didn't want to. 

Have a nice time with your relatives. It will take your mind of a little bit. Talking to friends does help. 

Tomorrow when i am in town i will go for a cuppa and piece of cake.

Thinking of you

Take care

Andrea

Hi all,

yes Edinburgh is a stunning city, I love it but unfortunately I’ve never been there without Mark and I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to visit it again without him. We have had the contract for the public retail catering at Murrayfield Stadium for the last 3 years and used to travel up there for all the Autumn International and 6 Nation Rugby matches. We were there at different times of the year so have been to the Christmas markets and to the museums and to the castle. One of the best days out ever was surprisingly when we did the Royal Yacht Britannia, I’m not what you’d call a royalist but it was really fascinating and you could see all the private rooms and everything. 

We used to drive up from Shrewsbury, it could be anything from a 5 hour to a 7 hour journey depending on traffic and time of year. We used to pass through a little town outside Edinburgh called Biggar and we both loved it and said it was somewhere we could imagine retiring to. All those conversations, assuming we’d be together forever. It breaks your heart doesn’t it?

:-(

Fiona x

Thanks Mike home now getting things ready for work tomorrow another day to get through hope you had a good day and sleep a little

A dreadful night ahead. Still awake. Last night was much better. This is going to be a long one. Had a mug of warm milk with honey if it helps. The tightness in my chest is just not letting me sleep. What to do?

Andrea

Andrea, could you try to go to bed and listen to soething - a podcast or even some relaxation music - to help you fall asleep?

Hope something will work.

Tomorrow is going to be a new day.

Love, Mel.

Hi Mel

Thank you for the suggestion. I have tried to watch and listen a guided sleep video on you tube but gave up. Maybe i should give it another go. 

Thank you for trying to help. Its helps as well there is always someone here to talk to. 

Sending you love and hugs

Andrea 

Hope you managed to get to sleep Andrea, I have to have the television on, I just leave it on Sky News and turn it down until it’s just a murmur, I don’t like the silence at night. I used to read books a lot but my concentration is rubbish now. It’s all just so different isn’t it?

hope the night passes ok

Fiona x

Hi Mel

Thank you for the suggestion. I have tried to watch and listen a guided sleep video on you tube but gave up. Maybe i should give it another go. 

Thank you for trying to help. Its helps as well there is always someone here to talk to. 

Sending you love and hugs

Andrea