Struggling

As has been said work fills in 8 hours that is all it does. No pleasure in it  you know it has to stop and then you are back to square one.  Microwave meal and silence

Hi Mark at the moment I am still at my sons. But even tho I am with them the loneliness is still all around me , it’s such a horrible feeling. . I still expect her to walk through the door and say do you want a cup of coffee. You said can we ever look forward to anything , at the moment I can’t see any future at all. I hope to god I am wrong. I hate this life. 

Mike 

Hi Newb I know what you mean about microwave meals and silence. It’s just sole destroying  , and you can’t even taste the food, it’s just a case of eating something. .Like I said in my last post I hate this life. 

Mike 

That's all I do just eat it no pleasure at all then have my sleeping pill and sleep up and work what a life before we used to be getting the caravan ready for our next adventure all gone now

Hi All 

Yeno what we should do when we are all up and ready to meet up somewhere in the country have one big meet up at 

At least we all know how the others are feeling. I think when we are all feeling upto it have a big meet up somewhere what do you all think 

love Jane X

Got a very bad day today. Just don't know what to do 

Hi Mike 

Yes Mike, I feel the same. It's as if we are encased in a bubble of empty loneliness and loss. We move about unable to break out of it. Even with family, it's still there. As you say it's a horrible feeling. 

I realise now, when it comes right down to it. The only thing that mattered was you were together. Everything else in our lives was a bonus. 

Simply being together was enough, I feel. And now it's gone. If my wife was happy, I was happy. I didn't need anything more.

As you say, I hate this life is spot on and we cling to hope there is a future. Existing isn't living and I'm simply existing for now. 

Hi Fiona

How was the week in Doublin?

I hope you had a nice time with your family. 

Love

Andrea

Hi Andrea 

I don't think there any good days, just different shades of bad ones. If I hadn't joined the group a fortnight or so ago, I know I would be struggling a lot more. At least we can share our thoughts and fears here without judgment. My heart goes out to you duck. 

Hi Newb 

So true. For any fortunate souls who vaguely enjoy their work, it may help them. But that doesn't apply to me sadly and I've 4 ready meals in the freezer. Been in there 3 weeks, sick of them. I went and had a carvery yesterday just to get a proper dinner in me, but it was awful sitting alone eating. 

Silence has become a battle I'm currently losing. Besides everything else we are going through.