After almost 17 months since i lost my lovely partner Davy I decided yesterday that I was feeling strong enough to finally clear his clothes from our wardrobe, not to throw them away but to pack them in suitcases and put them in the loft, I was working my way through them when i came across a birthday card he had written out for me and now i feel totally destroyed, in it he has written that he knew he was feeling unwell but did not know why but he had a feeling it was bad. He apologized as he had a feeling that we were not going to grow old together as planned but also thanked me for the perfect 16 years we had together and the love he felt for me was the love he had searched for all of his life, I,m so devastated that my poor lovely man had known that he had something that he knew he was not going to get better from and kept it to himself until he eventually could,nt. He has also written that he wants me to go on and live my life as the strong loving person that he knows i am,oh my god if only he could see the mess of a person i an since he went away!!! As well as the card some of his clothes he had still have labels on and its killing me the fact he never got a chance to wear them, I am such a mess today and I,m sorry for the long post but i can only say these things here as i feel people in my life would not understand as after 17 months some people just expect you to have moved on dont they? Whatever you are all going through i,m thinking of you all and hope you can find a little bit of peace in your hearts.
Linda xx
