the real fight

Well it is now Tuesday 6th October and later today I am going to the hospice to join the support group.  I hope I am not making a mistake but we shall see.  I hope that you are doing ok Peter x x

How did the group go? Our hospice don`t do a group. Hope it helped xxx

Hi Helen, I went to the group and found myself in a one to one conversation with a councellor.  There were not many people there so another councellor joined us. I am so priviledged to have this oportunity.  I discussed a few things which were bothering me and which I know no-one but myself can sort out. They reassured me that 31 weeks is still very early stages in bereavement times and that I should not beat myself up about things over which I have no control. I was reassured that as time goes on my memory should start to improve again.  I hope so because at the moment it is useless. They also said that it is quite normal to feel utterly drained and exhausted following bereavement.  I thought it was just me being wimpy.

I hope that you are doing ok.

Love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x

hi patricia, glad to read your post, i've just taken the plunge and am going to arrange to see a counsellor because i can't seem to make sense of things, my memory is utterly terrible at the moment, i keep forgeting the simplest things and worry it won't get any better, but your wee post encouraged me. blessings, bill

Hi Patricia

Glad you found it useful. Glad also it`s not just me with the absolute exhaustion!! Have been blaming it on work and was wondering whether to get my iron levels checked. Just stick with it eh??

I`m not too bad this week, better than last week which isn`t too difficult

Helen xxx

Weebill, so glad that you are taking the plunge and organising some councelling for yourself.  It is an amazing journey we are on isn't it. Not one I particularly like I have to say.

Helen, I was quite amazed when they said about exhaustion.  It kind of made me feel better.  Might be worth getting your bloods checked anyway. You never know it could be something to do with low Hb too. 

I seem to have hit rock bottom again this past few days.  I am not surprised by this because it always seems to happen when I have had a few reasonable days.

Take care all. Love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x

thanks patricia, its such an unusual thing all us people on a journey weneither wanted or particularly enjoy, yet the strange thig is that the journey is our journey. i do find myself wondering what sandra and i would be doing if this dreadful disease hadn't separated us so cruelly. its a hard process adjusting to what i call the 'new normality' which is what it is since life must go on. thanks so much for your words and thoughts, blessings, bill