I just wanted to say hello and that you are not alone, and posting here must have been so hard to do.
That's the big question, how do you survive the loss of a child?
Somehow you just do. My husband died in October, and I just live day by day, sometimes hour by hour. Losing a child is something that few parents ever experience and therfore cannot really understand.
We lost my stepson, my husbands son at the age of 10 in an horrific road incident. My husbands sister also lost a son at age 10 but to luekemia. Both were many years ago, but their/our grief journeys were very different. One was sudden, the other was a slow deterioration.
Do you have any family support around you, or friends? If you do, reach out for their support if you can.
I wanted to give you a big virtual hug, do drop by again whenever you want to, there are people here who understand.
Thank you for your kind words. My beautiful boy died last week at just 33 years of age after battling lymphoma for just over a year. He leaves behind his beautiful wife of nearly 5 years and a beautiful baby boy who is only 19 months old. Andrew made me a mummy and brought so much joy and pride to my life I cannot fathom life without him.
Hi MobysMum, so sorry you are going through this, it is the most awful thing! My daughter died almost 6 months ago at the age of 23, it is still so hard to believe. I have found that keeping to a routine, keeping occupied and being around other people keeps me from dwelling on the loss too much. I still miss her every day & cry everyday at some point. I am due to start some grief counselling soon, maybe that is something that would help you.
It is still so early for you, you need to be kind to yourself.
Hi, so I lost my beautiful baby boy who was ten months to an aggressive rear AML!! The day he passed was on the 11th dec…….. I’m not sure if it does ever stop hurting but it’s how we deal with it, everyday feels like it gets worse, but I’ve spoken to many parents who faced the same journey and tragic end and it does get better to live with!! I praying that we get a day where it feels better
I’m in the same boat, my boy lost a 4 month battle with AML, still can’t believe he’s gone, miss his face, his smell everything about him!! He didn’t even make it to his first birthday I’m lost and hoping it gets better
I’m lost and hoping it gets better 
