Hi all, I’m hoping for some reassurance to know this is “normal” and I’m not weird.
my lovely mum passed away at the end of September after an 18 month battle with bowel & liver cancer.
since 2 days after she passed I’ve felt extremely numb, I’ve not cried properly in weeks and I feel nothing. I’m in completely disbelief but want to feel something!
any advice / past experience would be appreciated.
thank you xxx
Hi Paige
I am really sorry to hear that your Mum passed away at the end of September.
Feeling numb after losing someone close to you is a very normal stage of grieving. For me I believe that when someone close has cancer you can sort of begin to grieve before they have actually gone. Also when supporting someone with cancer you can feel so busy with the day to day caring, appointments etc that there can be no time to really process anything much.
My family experienced a wide range of emotions all at different times. I believe that grief is individual. At times I felt numb, angry, upset, sad and it took time to start to feel as if I was coming out the other side.
I believe that for me the numbness was a sort of protective emotion to get through the earlier stages.
I didn't cry either for a long time.
I found cruse helpful and I will pop a link below for you. For me it helped me understand that all these different emotions were a very normal part of grief.
Home - Cruse Bereavement Support
I also found it helped to talk to those around me, but only when I felt ready.
If you feel like talking things through then please do give the Support Line a call. They can also have a look to see if there is any support in your local area as sometimes it can help to speak to those who have also been through a bereavement.
Jane
