Hi all, just wanted to share my story.. Lost my mum 14 weeks ago which was end of July.. It happened all so fast
She was diagnosed with breast cancer back in June last year, before she had her 1st round of chemo I badly broke my ankle and couldn't drive for over 2 months, so couldn't go with her or support her how I wanted to,
She started to lose her hair so she shaved it off, her taste and smell affected and generally struggled with finding foods she enjoyed.
And tired and weak.. Chemo knocked her about hard
In December she had a mastectomy (1 breast off) she was quite a busty lady so left a massive scar and alot of bruising but in time healed really well..
I think she had 10 rounds of radiotherapy which she found difficult
Had some good news eventually saying that they were pretty sure they had got the cancer, just wanted to give her a few more blasts of chemo to get any possible niggly bits..
This chemo was different and made her extremely weak, loss of feeling in fingers and toes, she fell a few times, they paused the chemo for a bit so she could get her strength up..
She was taken into hospital with a temperature and not feeling very well at all, sat in a chair for 48 hours then got a bed to be sent home the day after.. I went to visit her when she got home and she wasn't right.. So took her back in. Discovered she had pneumonia and sepsis on the one lung... Put on oxygen and antibiotics.. She was there a week before her breathing/oxygen levels were good, but she hadn't moved in that week..
On the 24th of July they said they would discharge her to a rehab centre to get her mobile again, she was sat down having a chat with the physiotherapist, when she had a seizure.. Followed by 2 more straight after.... My mum suffered with epilepsy but had not had a seizure since she was pregnant with me 40 years ago.. ( her medication had kept it at bay)
Crash cart was called doctors and nurses flying around everywhere.. They had 2 nurse care on her breathing for over 40 mins. They stabilised her breathing and then we had to wait for her to wake up after the anti seizure drugs they had given her during the seizures..
She was drowsy and unresponsive for hours.. They decided to take her to intensive care..
After a day in intensive care, they did a lumber puncture.. But nothing showed up.. 
She would groan alot and pull at her gown and sheets as if she was hot but no words but she would open her eyes..
They moved her into the hdu, a female nurse who was lovely, asked us if she thought mums stomach looked swollen.. We said yes actually it does.. She then said there has been no bowel movement since she had been in hdu so she suspected a bowel perforation so they sent her for a scan..
I went for a walk while she went for the scan.. My brother rang our group chat as the doctor had come back and taken him and my dad to a room.. My sister was on her way in so had pulled over in the car, I was a mile from the hospital trying to walk as fast as I could... The doctor said she had a perforated bowel.. And she has no resources left in her to have the operation to fix it.. So it was end of life care..
They would make her comfortable and that she probably had 18-72 hours
We called the family in to say their goodbyes on the 27th and then it was just my dad and my siblings. My brother left early so he could come back early in the morning. My dad and sister stayed till about 3am but they couldn't get comfortable on the chairs.. So they went home to bed to come back in the morning.. I stayed with her, I talked to her held her hand, she would open her eyes and we would just stare at each other.. I didn't sleep a wink..
About 8.14am I text my sister to see if they were on ther way as her breathing had slowed slightly.. She said leaving in a min.. By 8.20 she had passed away 17 hours after they had told us..
The pain is unreal... The sadness, the anger, the grief... Its floored me..
Some days I get through without crying.. Other days... Absolute mess
Coroner report has come today..
Cause of death.. natural causes.. Sepsis due to perforated bowel caused by radiotherapy..
I'm not sure how to feel about the results.. She seemed fine up until the seizures.. U question everything.. Did they give her the meds for her epilepsy.. Did they over do the meds after?
It won't bring her back i know that but I doesn't seem right
She was so unbelievably brave and I'm so proud of her.. Just so unfair, she would of been 65 this month 
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I hate cancer!
Thanks for reading
