Struggling

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Hello 

I find it very hard to ask for help, I’d rather be the one to offer support and I’m struggling. My son died 4 years ago at the age of 35 to metastatic bowel cancer. Since then my husband and I have raised thousands of pounds for Macmillan with cake sales, sponsored walks and my latest planned skydive at the end of May. It’s been helpful with our grief giving back to Macmillan who were so supportive during his last few days. I have terrible anger at his death and found running helped enormously but due to injury I can’t do this anymore. I was slowly coming to terms with this, finding other hobbies and volunteering at my local parkrun. I thought I was ok. Then….my husband was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer 3 weeks ago and I’ve fallen apart. I don’t think I can go through this again. 

  • I am so sorry to her of your husband's bad news, and hope his cancer is at an early stage. I lost my son to stomach cancer also 4 years ago (March 2021). He was only 40.Then 18 months later in the autumn of 2023, his older brother was diagnosed with thymus cancer and had nearly a year of chemo/surgery/radio. Mercifully he is now in remission. It is a real blow when it happens a second time in the same family, I know. Here's hoping your husband gets the treatment he needs. Hugs. Rebecca

  • Hi Rebecca, Thank you so much for your response and sorry for your loss and the awful time you have had. My son died in March 2021 too and was 35. My husband’s cancer was found incidentally and he has no symptoms. He is due to start radiotherapy soon and we are hopeful and I do feel a lot better today about things. It was seeing his timetable that set me off yesterday, such a little thing but it reminded me of our son Tom.

    kind regards Janey

  • No, it's not a little thing. It's huge. And too much for anyone particularly after the loss of a child, which you are still having to cope with. Losing a child is the hardest thing that can ever happen to a mother, whatever the "child's" age. I wish you strength to carry this new burden. Rebecca