My mum has terminal lung cancer that has now spread to her brain. She has lost her hair now and looks so thin and grey.
I can't stop crying and becoming very depressed. I'm not sleeping well either
Every day is such an effort to get out of bed, I just want to hide myself away
I get daily panic attacks,.feel nause, struggling to concentrate
The pain is unbearable
Nothing stops the tears or the feeling of depression
Hi Mumtothree and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
I’m Anne, one of the Community Champions here on the Online Community and I saw your post about how you're feeling since learning that your mum has terminal lung cancer.
As you know, the online community is divided into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you join the supporting someone with incurable cancer group, where you can discuss your emotions about the prospect of losing your mum, as well as practical issues about palliative care and end of life.
To join, just click on the link I've created and, once you've joined, you can start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
It would be great if you could put something about your mum's diagnosis and treatment into your profile as it really helps others when replying to you and also when looking for someone on a similar pathway. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
Dear Mumtothree,
This is my first reply on Macmillan Community - reading your message has helped me because you understand the despair and fear and shock. The person I lost yesterday from aggressive cancer was the only person I had who I could go to when I felt bad but he's not here anymore. I'm struggling through the shock the severe anxiety, I feel very lonely without him.
Grief is such a small word to mean such a big thing and if you have support around you it can alleviate. If like me you don't it's scary. The getting out of bed the the struggle the thickening nausea in the pit of the stomach I understand completely. I've been in this situation before and it does pass but when you're in it even now myself I'm terrified of it not.
Having the energy to move with those emotions and go out, get a routine is so hard.
I hope we can speak more and I hope that I have helped.
Hello Mumtothree
Bless you! What you are describing so mirrors what I went through when my husband was in his final days with bowel cancer just over 18 months ago. He was a `big bear` of a man and to see him reduced to more a less a shadow of himself and what he became was really heart breaking. Yes I went through the nausea, depression and constant crying as you describe at one stage I thought I would never stop crying and was a little bit in denial that he would get better. Every little `positive` that came along I took that as a sign he was getting better but unfortunately not to be. Was my son's wedding two weeks ago a day he wanted to see but again not to be. Was a lovely day and everyone seemed to enjoy themselves and so did I but still just felt that little bit empty. Lots of things happened since he went and so much I have wanted to share with him but he's not here to do that but just try to content myself he will be somewhere watching. Still have dark days/weeks but just write them off now and learn to go with them now and know they are only `visiting` as I like to call it and they will leave soon. Just keep coming on here when you feel you need to as we all `get it`. Best Wishes to you moving forward.
Vicky x
Whatever cancer throws your way, we’re right there with you.
We’re here to provide physical, financial and emotional support.
© Macmillan Cancer Support 2025 © Macmillan Cancer Support, registered charity in England and Wales (261017), Scotland (SC039907) and the Isle of Man (604). Also operating in Northern Ireland. A company limited by guarantee, registered in England and Wales company number 2400969. Isle of Man company number 4694F. Registered office: 3rd Floor, Bronze Building, The Forge, 105 Sumner Street, London, SE1 9HZ. VAT no: 668265007