Dad's ashes came home today

Ps- I don't know what I pressed, but sorry for the weird layout of my post

Hi Diane!

Yes it's hard to comprehend that your `loved one` is in that little casket isn't it. I'm 16 months in and still have my husbands ashes. Used to think that was quite creepy and morbid that people kept these but I do get it now. I just don't know what to do with them so he just `sits on the corner unit` for now with his photo at the side. We owned a static caravan in Argyll in Scotland where we loved to go at every opportunity and I took some of his ashes over there. I had to sell the caravan because financially it just wasn't practical to keep it going on my own and my son didn't want it so just had to let it go. Jay (my husband) loved it there it was his `happy place` so seemed right to leave a little bit of him over there and he got his wish in a way to be there forever. Things will get better for you you won't think they will just now as it's very early days for you but hopefully they will get easier as time passes. I'm 16 months in as I said and it's just now that I am beginning to move forward or try to be it very slowly. I'm still in the middle sort of I've began to accept that he is gone but at the same time still can't believe he is gone. I just hope I eventually get a realisation that he is gone for good. Some days I feel guilty when I don't think of him as if I am trying to forget him but I never will. He would want me to move forward though he told me before he passed that I was the stronger one in our relationship and that I would go on without him which at the time like you I thought was just going to be impossible. Please take care of yourself and take things a day at a time it's all you can do and just do what you feel you need to to get yourself through this. Keeping coming on here too when you feel the need to because we will all `get it` Best Wishes to you. 

Vicky x.

Losing someone as close as your dad, especially when he was such a big personality, is bound to leave a huge hole. Five weeks is no time at all when you've lost someone so important, and it’s normal to still feel the pain so strongly. Don’t feel bad if work or distractions aren’t helping much right now.

Thank you for your wise and kind words, Vicky. I am so sorry to read about the loss of your husband,  that must have been devastating for you and your family,  and probably still is. 

I wish I could fast forward life a bit, just so this raw pain is more manageable.  

Thanks again Vicky. Look after yourself too. X

Thank you for your reply Lorry. You're right,  5 weeks is no time at all, but I think bringing him home yesterday brought back all the emotions from his death and his funeral. It's like snapshots of the worst times of my life are played out again. I'm waffling. I tend to do that as my mind is all over the place.  Sorry, and thank you again. 

You will get there. One day at a time for now though.

xx