I lost my mum today

Hi Lauren 0406 welcome to the forum and I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved mum and so quickly. I can relate to a lot of what you are saying especially about the big hole left y the loss of your mum. I was a few years older, but not many, when I lost my Mum and in my head my world had come to an end and I went on to develop severe depression. That was 25 years now and I tink of her and miss her everyday of my life. However, I do know as time has gone on she instilled in me Values, ideas, and love for others. I feel certain that your mum will have done the same for yu but right now you won't see that for the sadness. Please talk to your mental health nurse/team and they will support you as you need them to but it's OK to not be ok so please remember that bit aswell. Sending some heartfelt ️ hugs your way for now xxx

Hi Lauren 

I lost my partner and best friend of 26 years 3 weeks ago to pancreatic cancer, I'm totally devastated and feel all alone and very scared, i just cant imagine my life without him in it,  he died within 6 weeks of diagnosis and right now its hurting so much

Thank you so much for your reply. It's nice to know that others have felt the same. I don't always know what I'm feeling, it's such a strange feeling. When I was 10 my dad passed away and that was awful but this just feels different, maybe because this time I'm an adult and it was peaceful and I'm old enough to understand more. 

I will continue to communicate with my mh team. Thank you again  

Hi sweetie

How are you doing? Is there any support you can access? The heartache from loosing a loved one is awful. I hope you have family and friends around you to help support you during this time. I'm so so sorry for you loss hun xxx ️️️

Remember, you don’t have to do it all alone. Reaching out like you are now is a huge step, and there are people who understand. One day at a time, and take as much support as you can get. Sending you strength and peace in this difficult time.

Thanyou all for your kind words , i wish my employer was the same, i was supposed to go to work yesterday but i just couldn't face it, and also my partners ashes were bought back to me, i just couldn't control my tears, but got myself together and went to work this morning, i had such a frosty approach from my manager which has left me feeling more lonely than ever, I'm just so so very sad and dont know what to do

Aww hun that's awful. Have you tried seeing your GP and getting some support through them? 

I know lots of people find it easier to get back into a routine and that gives them purpose and keeps them busy throughout the day. I keep being told to make time for myself and do something I really like thats just for me, something that can give you a little bit of happiness even if it's 5 mins. Maybe that could help you too Xxx