I’m not actually sure what to write here, but I am in the process of losing my mother, in the most brutal way. It’s paralysing her, it’s in her bones and in her organs. She’s lost the use of her legs as it’s in the spine. This weekend she’s taken a turn for the worse and I can not get my head around what’s happening and how sudden it has all gone downhill. She doesn’t even look like herself anymore, she’s delirious from all the pain medication that she’s on but it’s not touching the pain, I can’t bare to see her like this, it’s haunting me the image of her. But I can not imagine how scared she must be. She cried to me yesterday and sobbed saying that she can’t carry on anymore. I am absolutely heartbroken. Tomorrow we are discussing with the hospice whether to start giving her pain meds intravenously. But once that happens it’s not going to be long. I know this having worked in end of life care.
I don’t know how to cope or what to do. I just need someone who understands what I’m going through. Thank you for taking the time to read this
Hi Loopylou88
Sorry to hear about what your mother is going through. My nearest experience would be with my father though in his case it was not cancer but was something of a long drawn out illness that robbed us of him bit by bit.
When he died it was still something of a shock though of course the feeling that he was no longer suffering helped some. It took a while to for the good memories of the years together battled through those final months.
Glad you reached out on here, hope you find the community helpful.
<<hugs>>
Steve
