Miss you Mum

Hello Tracey  Anne and a warm welcome to the forum, I am so sorry to hear about your wonderful mum  my sincerest condolences to you and  all her  loved ones, having lost my mum to  cancer too, I understand what you have been going through, I'm sorry you didn't get to say goodbye at the hospital, no letter or video from my mum either, but like you and your mum we loved each other and that was the important thing and well done for speaking at your mums service, you should be very proud of yourself. Your mum was a very brave lady as is her daughter, to fight 3 Cancers for so long shows how special she was. I know how difficult  and sad it must be for you, but that is the price of love. I hope you can do the writing group again it sounds wonderful. I'm sure your mums watching you now and must be so proud of you that you are going to do your very best for her, I'm sure if you went to where the ladies looked after your mum and asked someone, they could see you, remember your mum will always be with you and love you unconditionally. Best wishes

Eddie xx

Thank you Eddie for replying to my article about mum it means so much to me 

I am only 37 and my mum was only 60 when she died 

We can't tell her mum that she has died because of her dementia how sad is that we were so close nan and I used to do art together in the school holidays used to ask her for advice now I cant 

I love to draw and write about memories of our family then I use it as my homework which I do with wea which helps me with my dyslexia 

I wish there is more group we can join to support each other on zoom or in person where can we go to ask about it 

So sorry to hear about your mum 

My mum had 1 year left and died so a sudden that's why I'm in shock 

Didn't say was in pain had all treatments and never complained once and when thought free of breast cancer she took her own bell and rang it in the hospital car park I still remember that day very well I know I cried on the phone to mum and one and two swear word who cares 

Then another time in Primark I swear very loudly because we thought it was great news at the time but as we know things get completely different 

Choosing hats to go with wigs was another example 

I want my hat I don't want my wig (mum didn't want anyone to see her with nothing on her head)

I want my hat said again to my stepdad and again I had to say it top of my voice how orfull for mum but I can see the funny said now then say day went to weatherspoons and again she said my wig ok and if course I said looks great mum this was first time out in it she hated anything like this in public bless her

And mum in a wheelchair running down a hill lol them are the memories you got to think sad but glad that happend 

I remember it well 

I hope that one day I can stop worrying when I do something mum loved the most swimming butterfly I get distracted and get disqualified because mum is in my head other swimming strokes are great even broke two of swimming rankings times and personal best times wish mum was here to see that happen 

Mum tought me to swim that's maybe why it is hard for me sometimes 

Thank you for making me welcome to the group here online 

You know I couldn't read or write until I was 15 look at me know doing it for mum and me 

Eddie nice to meet you 

Hi again Tracey, you are very welcome, having dementia is so very sad,  I'm glad you like your art and writing,  I like art and reading, will send you pictures of Tshirts  I've done. Tracey there is a cancer charity called Maggies  www.maggies.org where you can pop in and talk to others you don't need an appointment, open 9am to 5pm weekdays. We have all lost loved ones and we do find a way to move forward, your memories you shared with me about your mum must be so special to you  thank you for sharing they made me sad at times but also happy at times too especially your swimming. WOW that's amazing beating your personal best twice, well done, and I have to say your writing is beautiful, and its very nice to meet you as well.

Eddie 

Sorry Tracey I promised to show you the Tshirts 

These are fantastic did you do them In one day  or took longer put my bi about me please check if ok thank you have you got a link for the group that no appointments etc and love to do my art on paper mostly sketching at moment then watercolours when nan tought me so could say self tought with out teacher at school or college I hate there ways I'm always here when you or I need a quick hey how's your day etc I'm up for that

Tracey your profile is for you to decide if your happy with it, that's what matters most, personally I liked it for the personal touch, The T shirts took 8 sessions which were 3 hours each it was a new never been done before therapy group for people with cancer, the cancer charity is www.maggies.org I hope you have one locally.

Eddie

Hi Tracey, It's been some time since we talked, I was just wondering how you are doing, whether you got to Maggie's or found a support group, I hope you are doing well and found some activities you can enjoy,

Eddie