My mum passed away five weeks ago suddenly she had a glioblastoma brain tumour. We did not expect it as she had a recent MRI scan which said it was stable but she caught an infection and sadly died unexpectedly.
Jt was such a shock as we were planning and looking forward to Christmas as we thought it may be her last.
I am struggling as I have had to deal with a lot of firsts her birthday was a week after and then we had to plan the funeral which there was a delay due to the time of year and Christmas. I don’t feel like it has sunk in and still can’t believe she has gone.
we were very close I live across the road from my mum and dad and I seen her every single day. It feels so strange not speaking or hearing her voice again.
I have been off work sick since she has passed away and I am due to go back soon but Im very nervous about going back. I cannot think straight , I have not really grieved due to everything that has been going on around me. I am not really sleeping I replay everything over and over in my head about if I could have helped her anymore? I’m tormenting with it all tbh - please tell me it gets easier?
Hi kenny1986 welcome to the forum and I am so very sorry for the loss of your beloved mum. Believe me as someone who has been where you are, it does get easier, but the loss and the sense of that loss never ever goes away. However, right now the pain is real, your loss is so very very raw, but remember also that she lives on inside you as a part of her. I'm struggling with your post though to see what you could have done to have helped her anymore? I suspect from your post that you did all that you could to support both parents. It sounds like it was an infection that led to your mums death which is completely unpredictable so how could you have done anything about that. Any one of us could pick up an infection but I suspect that it may be more about the suddenness of how things happened. My heart goes out to you it really does and I wish I could say something to make any of this any easier but sadly I cant.
Thinking of you and sending some hugs your way for now.
gail
