I feel like I am in a dark pit of grief. This is my new reality. My mom is not here. I still can’t believe it is real. I feel so broken and the pain is so bad. My husband is lovely and tries to be supportive. But he said today that my reaction is extreme. What the heck does that mean? I am grieving my mom, who died suddenly and we weren’t prepared for it. I spent 6 months fighting for someone to listen to me. I knew she was seriously ill. She kept getting dismissed by Dr’s & consultants. She was in hospital for 12 days and on the 11th day they found out what was wrong. We were told the following day, 1 1/2 hours later she died. She had terminal cancer. How on earth did anyone miss it? We are in the process of getting her medical records so we can file a complaint and have things investigated.
I just feel so sad and tired of it all. My mom was my everything. I miss her so much & don’t know how I will ever get over this.
I am sorry for your loss too. It’s hard to get your head around it when it happens so quickly. My husband also said that my mom was one of my pillars & that has gone so I feel unsteady. I feel all the emotions of grief and they are so heavy. We shared so much with our common interests. I am finding it so hard to do the things I used to do. No one can put a time on grief and it’s hard to explain at. Work is a major issue as I feel very isolated & no one really checks in with me. I sit in my office on my own & could go to work and leave without seeing anyone 
. I am just in a very low place right now.
