I lost my dad when I was 10 years old . My dad meant everything to me and his death will always affect my life . I am now 18 years old and even though 8 years has passed the pain isn’t any less. I still tear up when someone even talks about him and I sometimes wonder if I’ll ever be able to speak about him with others without getting emotional. I feel like no one around me understands what I’m going through which makes it harder. I always try to think about the positives but it’s so hard when I lost him at such a young age. I cant even remember what he sounds like, but I can clearly remember his last few weeks and how different he looked and how he was stuck in a bed when he was usually quite an active guy. The last moment I had with him he couldn’t even speak, but knowing he’s no longer in pain puts me at ease. I find it hard to celebrate my birthday as it is a reminder that he isn’t here to see me grow up but hopefully it will one day get easier.
I would never want anyone to ever experience this type of pain and I know cancer has ruined millions of peoples lives and hopefully one day there will be a cure
Hi Mya14 welcome to the forum and I am so very sorry to hear how you are feeling. It may be so hard to get past such a loss and words fail me in tyring to make it any easier for you. However, what I do know having read your post is that if your Dad was here today he would be mighty proud of a child that he helped to raise, who in the face of great sadness and pain can still think of others.. I would say thats a child whos dad guided them well and have left them with a great building board for the future and a time when he wasn't here.
gail
