My dear dad passed away last week. He had been living with cancer for a couple of years. Chemo had stopped working and all was set for a fancy new treatment. Then he ended up in hospital where he just declined gradually. One day we were sat in his room chatting, 4 days later he's gone. I feel so sad and empty. Christmas has been awful because I can't bear any of it. Tomorrow is new years eve and again I can't get my head in it. I'm snapping at my children and husband, crying every single time I stop and do nothing. It honestly feels like a physical pain in my throat.
I'm not looking for answers, I know there are none. I just needed somewhere to express my feelings of utter sadness.
Hi Claireebelle welcome to the forum and I am so glad that you have felt able to express yourself in the forum thats what it is here for.
You are grieving for your dad who has been taken from you far too soon, so let yourself grieve and make your way through it all in the best way that you can It will pass but it will never truly leave you but just take a day at a time and put one foot in front of the other and remember your dad, always with love..
Sending sincere and heartfelt condolences for you. xxx
Hi Claire
I lost my mum 22/12/2022, so I know how you have felt over the last couple of weeks. I am finding it hard to tolerate everyone at the moment and I am really snippy. Especially my younger son, which I feel awful about. I hope things are getting better, mines appears to be getting worse now that reality is kicking in.
Massive hugs xx
Hi Cici81
Thank you for your message. I'm so sorry for your loss. Grief is a strange old thing isn't it? My emotions have been a bit up and down but that's OK.
We're starting to look at things at Dad's house, bit of fun and a few tears when we find random things.
All the emotions we feel are normal, remember that
Hugs
Claire x
Hi Claireebelle75,
I’m so sorry about your dad. A similar situation to me chemo worked for a while but then it just all went downhill.
I too snap at my love ones when it’s getting to me and sometimes it just makes you feel worse and feel guilty. But I want you to know you’re not alone in doing this and your children and husband I’m sure know why and know it’s the pain you’re feeling inside.
Sometimes it’s worse that there is no answers, that someone can’t tell you why this awful thing had to happen. But there is always people that want to support you and offer a hug (even virtual) and I’m sending you a big one.
Take each day as it comes grief has a mind of its own sometimes it’s better to just let it be than fight it all the time. All we can do is our best.
L X
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