Hi everyone,
I lost my dad in March this year, 5 months after he was diagnosed with stage 4 stomach cancer.
My boyfriend and I hosted Christmas this year with my mum and brother round ours.
We managed to have a nice time on Christmas and boxing day, and I know that would have made my dad happy, but I'm feeling so sad now that my mum and brother have left.
They had such a nice time at mine, and I feel so sad that they have now gone home (they live together) in the house where my dad's missing presence is felt so much. I think they both would have liked to have stayed longer. My mum said she would love to have stayed, and I feel so guilty.
I'm feeling so tearful today thinking of them back at theirs and how hard it must be to be there, and I am also missing my dad so much.
I was doing okay before Christmas and whilst they were here, but now I just feel so down and emotional.
We have friends coming round today so I'm hoping that will take my mind off of things, but I'm not sure.
How are you all doing at this time of year? Thinking of you all going through such difficult times. xx
