Hi all, I’m new here and this has taken a lot for me to post.
Background info, my dad (61) started having symptoms in August this year, after a lot of waiting he was finally diagnosed with stage 4 stomach cancer which has spread to his liver and lymph nodes. Unfortunately he deteriorated extremely quickly and wasn’t even given a chance to fight it 
He was admitted to a hospice last week and has now been asleep since Tuesday. My mum is understandably heartbroken and feels like the last few days have been like torture as we know he isn’t coming back now. He was a fit man and the doctors say his heart is still strong so we could still be looking at a few more days.
I have 3 young children (4, 2 and 5 months) and I am struggling with the fact that I so badly want to be close to my dad and there to support my mum but of course my children need me too. The guilt is overwhelming, it feels like such a lose-lose situation. To add to it, my parents’ dream cottage (which they only moved to in July) had a burst pipe the other day, resulting in a collapsed ceiling and lots of flood damage. I can’t believe we have to deal with insurance companies and organising having everything repaired while we are grieving my dad.
It all feels so incredibly unfair, cruel and overwhelming and I don’t know where to turn to. I also really think myself, mum and sister will need some kind of grief counselling but I have no idea where to start.
I’m sorry for the long post but I appreciate anyone who takes the time to read.
