Still hurts,Dad I so miss you

Hi Shinebright,

I am really sorry to hear about your dad. I lost my wonderful dad 4 months ago to stomach cancer, after only finding out about 4 and a half months before.

I think the grief comes over I waves. I obviously miss my dad every day, but there are some days where I can get on with things much better. But then I'll go through days where i can't believe that he is gone and I feel so desperately sad. 

I too have been having dreams about my dad lately, which are quite distressing as they are always about the cancer and about whether or not he would come out of hospital.

My dad is on my mind all the time, and I cant see that stopping any time soon.

I too wish I could have him back. I can't believe he is no longer in this world. It doesnt seem possible or real.

How are you feeling this week? xxx

Hi Shinebright,

Sorry for your loss. 

I lost my dad just over 2 months ago and I am still in the having nightmares about the last few days of his battle, I've not felt as lost and broken as I do right now in my entire life. 

I am unfortunately not in a position to be able to tell you what is  or isn't normal in this process,  but I really hope that you can be as ok as is possible in these hard times.

I'm also in the unfortunate situation of losing my job due to being pressured into going back way too soon, and then getting told 3 times by 1 of the managers that I should just get on and get over it now, and then his wife (another manager) telling me that as it's the school holidays that I will have to work 6 long days (as it is not their fault regarding the inconvenient time of my fathers passing) instead of the 3 shifts  of 6-8 hours that was agreed for me to try and get back to work whilst still signed off. Hence to say I didn't react very well so I got signed off again from the GP, and was then told by text that my p45 is in the post. I guess they really didn't need me to work the 6 long days after all.

Anyway I am not going to say that I know exactly how you feel because I don't as we all have different feelings in these circumstances but I do empathise with you and really hope that you stay strong.

I am really missing my superhero and I am not sure if that feeling will ever ease or be more bearable with time.

Take care mate x