Morning all,
I just needed to come on and say nothing really. Just feeling so sad at the moment, I lost my Dad in February, he had just turned 68 and I’m 38. I miss him SO much and can’t understand why it happened to him and us.
This week has been emotional, my daughter will be turning 13 in just over a week and it will be the first “celebration” without him. We are a very close family and my parents are like parents to my eldest children, they are very close, they have also found the loss of my Dad very tough. My son was born in November so my Dad got to see him for a few months.
He was in his element with all of his family and grandchildren round him, playing golf and having our annual family holidays and it’s all been taken away from him and us.
I tell people on here all the time “one day at a time” and “the pain will get softer” but everyday I wake up with this emptiness and sadness that I will never see him again and he should be here. How will this pain ever go away without him.
x
Hi,
I'm really please that you had an okay day shopping with your mum and that your 6 month old is helping to distract her. 
My mum doesnt cry all that much when talking to others about dad. She said she has sometimes. I wonder if because she has dealt with grief before (her first fiancee died in a motorcycle accident when he was 21, and her twin brother died of cancer about 15 years ago) she has learnt how to cope with it.
She did say she had a sad morning the other day as she saw things in my dad's office and the bedroom and she realised she would never see him again. I told her that made me feel really sad that she was upset, but she replied saying 'well, it's natural that I am going to feel sad'. It just upsets me so much the thought of my mum being sad, but like she said, she is going to feel that way.
I really feel for our poor mums. I would do anything to bring our dads back. x
