My dad has been in a hospice for just over 2 weeks and we had a call on weds to say that he was on his last couple of days.
My family and I rushed down and have been with him.
On Wednesday he was hardly waking up and they said they didn't expect him to still be here by Thirsday evening.
On Thursday he was a bit more awake at times and was trying to talk to us a bit, although he cant speak very well as his cancer is now pressing on his vocal cords and he has a chest infection so is very bubbly.
Yesterday (Friday) he was asleep all day and not rousing at all but the nurses have said that his breathing is still strong and he is obviously a strong man.
I feel so heartbroken. It has all happened so suddenly. He had chemo booked in up until May, but suddenly went downhill over the last 4 weeks.
I am spending all day everyday at the hospice with him and my mum, and stayed the night last night. My brother did the precious 2 nights.
It's so hard seeing my dad just lying there now, and I'm struggling to know what to think. I obviously dont want him to leave us, but I'm so scared that he is suffering and is scared himself.
He hasnt had a proper drink for 3 days and hasnt eaten anything for 3 days.
I feel like I'm in a surreal limbo where my dad is sort of here, but not really.
Has anyone else gone through this? I'm scared for when he will stop breathing, but also think it will be a release for him. But I feel terrible for even thinking that.
