Hi All
I lost my dad on the 29/09/2021. He was diagnosed in November 2018 and was told it was terminal. I have read previous posts and i know that i am extremely lucky the fact he made it for an extra three years but i feel so sad and it doesn't feel real. He just went down hill so fast and i am struggling to come to terms with it. We had his results back in June 21 that the scans and tumours were ok and then three months later he had gone.
I feel numb and a dull ache in my chest from this. His funeral is next week and i have decided not to see him in the chapel of rest. I feel masses amount of guilt for not going to see him but that wasn't him. He had changed so much, he lost loads of weight and was basically skin and bone at the end. I am trying to remember him when like his normal self. I have no motivation for anything and don't really want to see/speak to anyone. He was rushed into hospital twice before he died and i still feel like he's in there now and i am still waiting for the text to go and get him.
I know i am grieving but I'm not sure if my next step would be to talk to my gp and let them know how I'm feeling. I can't stop crying and will cry at the smallest thing.
