I don't really know where to start or how to phrase this but I need to write somewhere as I'm struggling. I lost my mum in March 2020 to cancer 9 months after her diagnosis. After the initial numbness and grief I thought I was doing ok. A couple of weeks ago someone asked me how I was doing and I burst into tears and actually I feel like I miss my mum more and more as time goes on. The thought of living the rest of my life without her around is so daunting and it seems like out of nowhere I've been hit by a tidal wave of grief worse than last year or when she was diagnosed.
I think the timing of her death just before covid and subsequently having my 2 young children around 24/7 meant I was kept busy and didn't have time to grieve properly. If that's even a thing. I don't know I'm just a bit all over the place and needed to write somewhere. Does anyone have any advice or good books I can read?
Thank you x
