I love and miss my daddy sooo much. I think I'm only coping due to my medication and my family and friends support.
I'm still struggling without my daddy and I wish that I could have one more kiss and cuddle off my daddy.
What made it harder for myself and my fiance when my nanna came for my daddy (that's how my mum told me that my daddy had died) is that we couldn't afford to pay for our train fares to get back to our hometown to spend what was my daddy's last Christmas with us.
I miss my daddy sooo much it hurts as much now as it did the day my nanna came for him.
Hi Nannasgirl1982
I am sorry that it has taken a while for anyone to answer this post, it truly is a personal thing grief!
Having reviewed some of your other posts I can see that your have been lost without your daddy and struggling too, I wondered whether there has been any talk of other treatment other than medication to help you to come to terms with your grief?
My Dad recently passed, less than two months ago and every day I find it getter harder and harder to realise that he is gone.... not from my mind, nor my heart, not even from my eyes as there are photos of him for me to cry over, but from my ears, that is the part that I miss the most, the sound of his voice, his laugh, his encouragement... the very essence of him.... So I understand the pain you feel.
Somethings just take time, some things we are more able to accept than others.. I do hope that you will be able to hold on to your more positive memories and start to let go of the regrets that you have, as no amount of time will change those.. Had I known my Dad would die in hospital after a week of not having any visitors due to covid, there would have been nothing on earth that would have stopped me being with my Dad before he passed. I can't change that now, and I have to accept that everything happens for what ever its reason.. he wouldn't want it to consume me, and I am sure that your Daddy would not want that for you either.
For him Nannasgirl1982 focus on you and the life that you can make by interweaving your daddy in every fibre of it.
Take care of you
Lowe'
