Nearly a year.

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It will be a year ago soon when my dad passed over.December 2019.A few days before Christmas of which he detested so we can make a few jokes about that part.

When dad left this world a nasty virus entered the news and then the world.Dad was of course the keeper of the world, kept everything safe and in order, a total worry wart with solutions for everything and had everything in control right down to the way he wanted his year to go.

My dad found out in March of 2019 that he had lung cancer OR The Monster as we refered to it.

As soon as he found out he was on the computer looking up medical articles gallor to be more informed than the Drs themselves.He decided that treatment would cause more harm then good, as he said to me 'I'm in my 70's I have to go at some point!' 

Us 'kids' were asked NOT to try and change his mind.Dad knowing me sat me down at the table and plonked the laptop with a artcle that I was ordered to read.After I read it I looked up at him and nodded ok.Dad knew what he was doing, he knew he didnt want to go through treatment making him sick day after day just of the possibilities of a few months more.My dad was so darn strong right up till the last moment when we said goodbye, a true Irish man with a sense of boyhood mischeif.

I am now at the point of Ok I have experienced that, can be have him back now??

We have been on the go since January with the virus and now only now reality is settling in for me.

  • Dear MiaRG,

    Time has a cruel way of passing by, whilst seeming as if things were only yesterday.... I don't have the words to make anything different, I do understand the need to have someone return and have experienced a devastation amidst the loss.....  The virus was an added blow to you and your family.   Time will continue to pass, and it will often only seem like yesterday.

    ((((Huggs))) 

    Lowe'

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    I understand you "wanting him back !"  Our 36year old daughter died just over a year ago from melanoma.  I find myself saying (to myself), ok, that's enough,  you can come back now!   I still hope for it, which my rational brain tells me obviously won't happen.  

    I'm hoping time passing will make the heartache ease a little but it certainly hasn't yet.

    Xx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Erica I am so sorry for your loss does not even seem to cover it.The biggest warmest hug goes out to you.You have put it perfectly.The one thing I have in my head when I start to feel it is that dad would not be amused if I let the feelings take to much of a hold, so basically its boxed and only allowed out now and again.Grieving is a strange thing.Again the biggest warmest hug.