I lost my mum in March 2018 to Pancreatic Cancer and although day to day life has gotten easier I still feel a strong sense of grief. It’s always the first thought of my day and I tend to get emotional most evenings and long for comfort from my Mum.
I had never lived away from my Mum and was in my early 20s when she passed so there was a huge hole left when she was gone. I think the pandemic is making things worse again as I spend a lot of time alone, indoors and thinking about things. I am working from home and struggling without my usual work structure and commute.
i just feel very lonely and all I think about it how unfair it is that this happened - especially when friends talk about their Mums. My mum was like a friend to me and we spent a lot of time together.
Does this feeling last forever? I don’t know whether to seek help with a councillor but something about it just doesn’t appeal to me as I struggle to open up sometimes.
Christmas is also something I can’t seem to enjoy anymore either, I hope that one day I’ll have a family of my own and this will help ease the pain a little.
Xx
