Hello,
At the start of lock down my lovely father in law was diagnosed with cancer it was in liver and pancreases. There was no treatment, he was given just two months. We lost him three weeks ago. It was so quick, there was little time to process and decline was rapid.
when we told the children he was getting ready to go to heaven (day before) as adults we were emotional. My son (6 yo and possibly autistic) listened and did nt really acknowledge it. I think he was uncomfortable with adults crying. When he died, again our little boy showed no emotion. It was like he did nt process it. Three weeks later and suddenly last week he cried. He has nt stopped. He is absolutely terrified we will die and leave him alone and his will he cope remember us, pay his bills, know how to catch a bus. He is even worried about how he will pay for his children to do things. He is just six years old. Huge separation anxiety. He is in my bed now.
I need some support and advice. I don’t know how best to support him. He is literally crumbling before my eyes with worry, fear, grief and anxiety.
thanks for reading
Hi ,
I think you need to speak to the helpline in the morning. They are open 8 am to 8pm, every day on 0808 808 0000
I'm sorry that means you've got to go thru the night, wondering how to support him. Maybe an old fashioned hug will help, or is that awkward with an autistic child?
I also thought of the Samaritans, given they're open 24/7.
Thanks for the number, I will call them tomorrow.
He is ok with hugs from me and his daddy. We’ve given him lots, he actually loves hugs, he clings on sobbing about how much he loves us. He says if we die he will die so he can be with us.
He is now in my bed, husband is on a night shift. Clinging to my arm and his toy llama.
Hi , how's your grandson now?
Hello, it’s my little boy.
He sobbed walking to school, about being alone when my husband and I die. What job he will have, how will he learn how to do it. Stopped crying by time he walked in but told me he went to the toilets to cry. He was fine after school, said he had a good day. I was walking Past the school earlier and he was happily playing. He cried again at bedtime. Tomorrow I’m keeping them home and we are going to the zoo. Going to try to have some fun.
I called the help line who referred me to winstons wish, they said it’s normal for a 6 yo. Keep listening, talking and they will send me some books. They also said I should be concerned about my daughter (9) who is nt reacting at all and she’s filed the feelings away and that I need to talk to her more. I’ve tried she does not want to. She said I’m making her sad so I left it,
feel a bit like I’m messing up and not making it better for them.
Sorry I mistook it for your grandson . Not very awake!
Don't think you're messing things up - there's no " right" way to deal with this n you've also got your own feelings to deal with.
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