It's been a while since i've posted and i've been struggling with weather to post this or not for a few days but I've decided to because otherwise it will just go round and round my head. I lost my mum aged 77 to lung cancer on April 26th 2018 and I never realized it was possible to have your heart broken, of course i'd heard the phrase loads of times just like everybody else had, but I honestly didn't think it was possible until that day. And while I still miss her so much everyday it is getting easier...still hurts but is getting easier. I guess what i've been struggling with is I actually found myself thinking when this COVID 19 outbreak got bad here thank god mum went went she did. Because mum had had lung surgery so only had one lung and she also had COPD this virus would have been devastating for her so she would have had no choice but to stay indoors and not see her children, her friends her family and the thought of mum dying alone reduced me to tears in fact i am now.as I write this. Of course I didn't want to lose mum but when mum slipped away she had people around her that loved her more then anything in this world and with whats going on in the world at the moment it would have killed me if i hadn't had the chance to see her or tell her that I loved her. Plus mum was such a loving person to see the world in the state it is now would have broken her heart so thats what I meant when I said i'm glad she went when she did and in the way she did.
