My son

FormerMember
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Hello im new to this kind of thing but been told it may help to talk to other people about it so here i am. 

My son was diagnosed with cml in april 2017 after being admitted for pneumonia.  You just never expect it do you?  

After quite a few treatments failed they said he needed a stem cell transpant which he had in march 2019. 

Sadly that also failed and i lost my son in july 2019 and now i just dont know how to face each day without him. 

He was funny ,handsome and had just the most infectious smile that could brighten the darkest of days 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi,   I know, my daughter died in September from melanoma, she was 36.  Like your son,  she was beautiful, a life force to be reckoned with, but that didn't save her.

    It seems it doesn't get 'any better' as time goes by, we just have to get used to it.  Reminders come along, of birthdays, family events that just take your breathe away that she's not actually here any more.

    I think we have to carry on, remembering them, remembering everything we can and keep those memories alive with love and the vitality our children brought to us and would want us to carry on with, hard though it is.

    X xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hi,  first of all im so sorry for the loss of your daughter.

    You hear of people getting cancer all the time you just never expect it to be your child do you?  And you most certainly dont expect to lose them.  

    I agree the occassions are hard. His 29th birthday was in october and Christmas i just couldnt face at all. I went away and just didnt celebrate it.  Im absolutely dreading mothers day but i suppose its just another hard day to get through now. 

    I agree il never let him be forgotten . He fought hard just want enough xxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Yes you are so right.  We hear of and know so many people that suffer with cancer but you never ever expect it to be your child.  Adult or not, they're still our children.  It's the wrong course in life, our children shouldn't die before us. I would have given anything at all to swap places with my daughter to give her life back.

    I agree, I would have cancelled Christmas completely if I could.  It feels wrong that the world just keeps on turning, the sun still comes up and goes down and we have such gaping holes in our lives.

    Well I hope we can carry on somehow.  I know it's what my daughter wanted me to do and I'm sure your son would be the same.  Keep on going, it's all we can do.

    X x