Dreading New Year

Hey I’m the same...haven’t been able to do anything with Mum’s hairbrush, washbag, recent clothes, blankets, little cushion.  Too painful. I understand and empathise completely.

Rubber rings, dinghies, lots of love and virtual hugs coming out to all of you xxx

Thanks SPu  and thank you for the rubber rings, dinghies and virtual hugs too - we all understand here. Like I said, I can’t look at mum’s clothes, make up or little cushions either, as you said, just too painful.

Thinking of you all xxx

Awww sending rubber rings, dinghies and virtual hugs, your way ladies. Xx 

I'm very very tired tonight. Bathed and PJ's already. I just feel exhausted. I'm Inot the best when I'm tired. Super emotional. I spends my days happy and up beat, trying my hardest to fulfill her wishes of building a good life, but the one person, I wanthe most, to just check in with, just that Mum boost.  I can't. Nothing in particular, you know, when you just want your mum. No particular reason. I'm just missing her, just missing that mum love.  XXXX 

I'm gonna snuggly down and know she always with me. And would be telling be, I'll be ok  Xx 

Sending you all calm wishes. Xx

I’m missing my best friend in the world, just want mum. I really miss talking to mum about the everyday things. Sometimes I say something to dad and on a few occasions I have said mum, instead of dad. It really is such a difficult journey that we are all on. Your right Sunshine, we are all missing that mum love xxx

Just wrote a long reply, went to add a picture and the whole thing disappeared!!  

Wanted to send you both a huge hug. I’ll join that missing your mum bus this evening. I went out for a run earlier and realised I’d put my running trousers on inside out and back to front. The one person who I know would have chuckled at that was mum! We were both pretty clumsy. 

I also had a dream about her last night. I dreamt she spoke to me, telling me she was ok and that I must carry on. I was crying and telling her how much I missed her and she was encouraging me saying how well I was doing and that she believed in me. I woke up calmer this morning and that I’d somehow connected with her. Sure that’s a bit bizarre.  

Saw these lines in the sky tonight on my run - felt like there are always messages on my runs from her. 

Sending you all buckets full of love. 

Bath and bed! 

Xxxxxxx

hopefully tomorrow I’ll have some more words of wisdom xx

Hi Kate. It seems there are quite a few of us on the mum bus. Mum and me laughed at the same things too, we shared the same sense of humour.

They say dreams are another way that our loved ones connect with us. Your mum, I’m not going to say would - but is proud of you, our mum’s are always with us.

Another lovely picture and another sign from your mum too.

love xxx

I said I would share my picture when I have given it to my friend. I hope you like it and I hope it makes you all smile.

Oh and I made this today a very funky bunny

Gbear I love, love, love the picture!! Lucky friend to receive it. Thank you for sharing it - put such a smile on my face.

Also love the bunny. Did you just make that one? Freya, my niece would love him. If you make anymore, could I buy one from you? He has such a lovely face xxx

The bunny is so easy to make I thibk your niece would love making one too. All you need is a sock, rice and wooly filling, ribbons, pen and some elastic bands and a good giggle.

You roll down your sock, pour in rice to a height of approx an inch. Then fill the sock up to just below the foot end before I goes to the ankle. Tie it with an elastic band then you have your bunny face which is two which we had plastic eyes with stoppers to stop them coming out. You pour more rice in to make the head shape mostly towards the nose shape and add more stuffing. Tie off with another elastic band with enough sock to make the ears. I then cut the top of the sock in half forming the ears then shaped them and drew on the the mouth etc. At the bottom of your bunny, you can make your bunny tail by grabbing abit from the lower part of the bunny and tie it off with an elastic band.

I hope you can see the tail, it didn't photo very well.

As an edit I forgot to mention that I made it at my support group, great fun sometimes its cards we make sometimes other craft things, I do confess I love the bunny. I believe we are making hedgehog next month not sure when I am sure it be good fun. Actually thinking about what you were saying about your neice I wonder how much it would cost for the stuffing filler for the sock etc? 

Gbear I love the picture it is beautiful I'm sure your friend's wife will love it. Love the bunny too he's so cute!! Wish I was good at art.

Hope all the Macteam are doing ok. X x x